i'd started living with mr.v alot.
not e-v-e-r-yday, only during weekends, when i din go back beepee. which in some way, seems quite a lot too. you see, i dun have class on Friday. most of the time, my class finished on thursday evening at 4 pm. and so when mr.v's class ended at 5 pm, he'll drop by ixora n pick me up. on sunday, around eveing time i'l be back in ixora.
erm.. it's kind of a routine now.
a bit boring n monotonous to tell the truth.
which leads to the big fight yesterday. i dunno if it can be considered THE FIRST BIG FIGHT. since we dun fight much. when we quarrel, we just keep silence. so is it considered a quarrel at all? and one thing, it's so much more dramatic n frightening to quarrel face to face compared to by-sms. by sms, if we quarrel, it will only be 'dun reply' and case closed.
but face to face?
well, so this is how the whole thing happened. thursday night, i was here as usual. with my backpack n laptop. it's goin to be yet another peaceful weekend if THAT did not happen. late night, i was tampering with my photos, copying, croppin here and there. i just get ACDsee installed and just wanna try out. imagine, since having my laptop from last year, i never had an picture editting software. so when alas i can modify, can crop..cant i be a bit engrossed?
well, it did seems like ignored him the whole night. but he's studying. and my pressence always seem to disturb him in one or another way. so by keeping myself quiet n scarce, wouldnt it be better? and we're having Phys Lab Final on friday evening. it's already thursday nite and he hadn't yet started. so i tot, some peace for him..
why do i sound so agitated? haih.. i'm fine by the way. we make up after that.
and so the story continued. he's there silently studying and me with my laptop. then he saw what i was doin and comment.
"ni hen zhi lian le."
in a very sarcastic way. oh...ok..or mayb it's just wat i think and he was just joking. which will make me an idiot or smtg. but i'm angry. for that instance i really wanna close off the window page which id been doin for more than half an hour.
then i think, why would i wan to do that. i'm doin what i like to do. if he dun like so? i get away from him as far. i am angry. and he din bother to come say sorry. i'm so pissed.
he just sighed n continued his studies. like as if 'there she is, shua pi qi again' kind of attitude. which even pissed off me more. soon, he fall asleep. i really cant stand. making me happie and never cry, isnt this what he promised before? whatever..i got my laptop and IM til 2 am smtg with headphone on. which is stupid of me as well..because i ended up argueing with a monkey about his monkey-ness.
i wanted to sleep on the floor at first. but the thought of slimy-creatures such as lizard, cockraoches, rats (!!) puts me off the idea. i tried to sleep as far from him. which is kind of tough, when we'r both on a single bed.
it's morning time (friday), and mr.v got classes at 9 am. which i dont. he woke up and i kind of in half daze watchin.. of course im acting like i'm still in dream. nthg happened. no pankiss no peck. and so i tot..the quarrel not yet over. duh..i dun mind. he headed off to school.
silent spell befall.
it's 11 am. he's back. i just woke up. a few small talk and..
silent spell again.
he asked me if wanna eat lunch. i din answer. (which he said later was one of the causes he angry of me too, as if talking to 'mu tou ren') but hey, ask a second time mar..... :(
he studied his, i studied mine. though i doubt how much we both managed to absorb in. an hour or more pass, i'm hungry. almost pengsan from hunger....... dun care dy. i took my wallet, get his key, unlock his front door and walk to nearby coffee shops to tapao.
it's yong tao foo btw. n only did now i really it's expensive. 0.50 per piece!
i'm hungry, so money dun matter much. but even as i am still angry, i tapao-ed a packet for mr.v. (large de some more) while i was walking home, i did wonder whether he'll worried about me and come out find me or smtg. but that didnt happen. and even when i reached home n unpack my lunch, he is still hunch up in his room. i ate and continue my study. he was still there. not budging a little.
and when he get up for toilet, he saw, i confirm he saw the packet i tapao for him and he din even care. he din even ask. he did nth. when he goes back to studying again, he open his container and munch biscuit.
I AM SEETHING WITH ANGER.
so this is wat i get for being thoughtful and getting him a packet?? waste my energy and efforts. not like as he'll care if i got run down in a accident or kidnapped away. i'm angry, upset, very very hurt.
:((((((((((
after fifteen minutes or so, i cant stand anymore and get changed. packed up my stuff. i'm going back to ixora. what's the use of two being together if we'r so pissed off at each other face? i rather go back and stare my room. cry or no cry.
seriously i'm really upset. and i noe i wouldnt get so work up and terribly hurt if i din love him. the logic just work the opposite way! i'm starting to doubt if it was even right in the first place to started and all kinds of stuff. well, he stopped me. i din managed to get out of his room at all. man..guys strength are frightfully strong when they wanted.
i really wanted to leave. it hurts so much just to stay. he asked, ' did i noe he was angry too?' i knew. yet, i am angry too! he told me what he's angry of. that i'm aloof sometime, i never took him in consderations sometimes, tis n tat. some are true but some are not! and did he know what i'm angry about?
here's my list.
- being so totally unappreciative of my pressence
- being so unromantic (i noe he wasnt and i tried to forgo this)
- being too routine
to him// i noe it's not ur fault. you say i could change and so can you rite?
either way, i am contented with what he is now. mayb i did act a bit wilful, a bit unreasonable, a bit incosiderate, a bit a bit of everythng. sowie...
in conclusion, i just love make up after a big quarrel! and i hated quarreling. very very much. able to touch him is always better than seeing him from a far. and i really shud try stopping my feeling from plunging deeper. it wasnt this seriuos when i written it down now plus i'm in a good mood. but the real thg is ..... just dont hope it to happen again.
oh.....i must clarify one thg. even though we're spending much of time together, but NOTHING, absolutely nothing happen between us. and yesh pan, i'm still a virgin.:)
living together as in;
studying together,
eating together,
play together,
laugh together
and doing our own stuff together.
just like now. me blogging and he doing his computer applications assignment. well, come to think about it, i shud be studying for my computer appli quiz this monday too!!!!
a lil pieces of my love life. keep in Blogger.com for future references.
p/s: i got PTPTN Loan! finally a load of my shoulder. :)
WEI XIAO Pasta or Smile Pasta like so many of taiwanese ou xiang ju....mesmerizes me.
Nicholas acts as a superstar everyone loves, HeJun. one day, as he say, the unluckiest day of his life, he met XiaoShi, the pasta-making girl. it's not really about all kinds of pasta. just spaghetti. and the story grows on... while HeJun is running away from paparazzi, he accidentally bump into XiaoShi, and accidentally again (as if) kissed her. their kissed get caught on shot and ...
and the fact that Nicholas resembles Rain so much in the drama cannot be denied.
Shakey's menu. and their slogan, More Pizza. More Than Pizza.
my meal at Shakey's. taken a long time ago. meant to blog but procrastinating kills de mood.
Pizza Hut. it's slogan..i dunno. is it All Under One Roof?
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh......and they serve the new Triple Chicken Cheesy Bites. hot of the oven.. with all the cheeses oozing out.. ma ma miah~
our side-ordered Cheesy Meatballs in Masala Sauce. yummy....
the whole set for two people consists of a regular Triple Chicken Cheesy Bites pizza, 2 glass of Pepsi, mushroom soup for each as usual and Parmesan breadstix. (plus our side-order n service charges n tax, it's around RM 40 ++)
the road view. we sat just by the window and mr.v commented how tat it just feels so Hong Kong-ish. busy cars rushing by, lights everywhere.. and dining right beside it. how romantic! except, we are not in a high posh restaurant. only Pizza Hut. spoilsport...
him eating.
me eating.
there's too much pics. so all in all, compressed into one. :)