i'm kinda boring now. Human Development final test paper on Monday. how can anyone not be dishearted n dispirited?

and i kind of browse my friendster.. then u noe what?

i rmb pan's taunting. haha.. i dooubt u rmb what is it yourself.

and i find my myself such an ideotic-childish-like-a-feather-headed-mindless-love-obsessed teenager.

whewwww... what a long name.

and so, just to prove that I AM NO LONGER such a so ideotic-childish-like-a-feather-headed-mindless-love-obsessed teenager..

i satisfied your view pleasure.

:)

To : mr. jason
Date : Wednesday 29th June 2005
Time : 01.44 am
Subject : narna calling for jason

haha..too boring so msg u lo..
now dy 0125 in de morning.. so tired. wanna "fan
kau" liao.. hehe.. my cantonese improve liao wo..
nowadays we seldom sms. at first so weird. keep look
at the hp. then when every sms come i tot is urs.
haha.. then later on got use to it liao.. not so jumpy.
also dun expect ya to sms so much liao.. aiks.. dunno
wat i'm saying. then..then..ring tone also. dunno y
nowadays people keep calling. past also not so many
call. then everytime my phone ring it's not the song i
wanna hear. haha.. but then after a while also xi guan
liao. but hehe..i keep tat song as my alarm. wakaka..
so everyday also can hear. then i'll learn to hate it.
hehe.. kidding la. dunno how am i ever going to forget
tat song. time flies. haha..just now ker eng i go look
back my testimonial. about half of them mentioned
you. wakaka.. then so much have change. aisk..
dunno y i'm blabbering here.

truthfully, i do really miss you. like those day when
your hp got confi..still rmb? haha.. but ansur-ansur
also learn to live without you. learn to treat you as a
friend, not a boyfriend. very weird. hehe..most time
also pretend out de. how's ur life now? i almost lost
touch bout ur happening liao.. when we saw each
other almost like stranger liao.. haih. gotta exam soon.
study more! my advice for you. knowing u, i sure u
haven study except reading sej. haha.. so many
memories to keep, to huai nian. haha.. i'll always rmb
all those time. not that i wan forget can forget. also
wanna remind u my chronicle! already delay dunno
how long liao.. haha.. tis year left not much le. i guess
after spm we'r both going our own way. interact
function also almost finish. everything seems to end
so fast.

haha..suddenly think of smthg. it's interact who
brought us together de rite? i owe so much to interact.
and i sacrifice lotsa too for interact. now it's coming to
an end, some part of me feel relieve. the other part bu
she de. if time can stop how good hor? i wanna stop,
stop forever at the balcony by the lake side. haha.. i
think i terlanjur tulis liao.. so long. haha.. mayb
continue next time. tata.. somehow i feel i can never
forget you forever. Nite =) and thanks for reading.
thanks for everything.

-end-

my past.

my FORGOTTEN past.

left in friendster message outbox to rot.

and so, why not saved it here to remind me again never to do such ideotic-childish-like-a-feather-headed-mindless-love-obsessed-kind of act?

hahahahahaha..

laugh.

LAUGH.

Laugh all you like.

i cant even stop myself. it's really me who wrote that. how can i in my most impossible dream did that??

well, as the saying goes..

"Love is Blind"

how true is that? haha.. but hey, my blindedness had cured. it's a new me now so never compared me with tat old ideotic-childish-like-a-feather-headed-mindless-love-obsessed teen.

just a small reminder for myself. haha.. btw, there's no privacy infringement kay..cos i'm the writter herself.

also, just to clarify, i'm not ashamed of this or what.. i am contended. past, current and hopefully future.

i just feel INCREDULOUS how i can be such a ideo-.. dun get me started again. haha..