i guess... people do grow up. and change. so it is normal.

but do we accept the change or do we run from it?

a few years back, i may know the deepest secret of him, but i also knew his naiveness and playfulness, outspoken-speak-without-thinking manner which causes him lots of trouble. BIG troubles. but then, NOW, a few years later.. he is no longer the 'he' i noe. no longer the playful, humorous, hilarious, funny guy i use to hang out with. cant even reply his message without thinking twice if i sound like some madwoman or crappy person.

okay. so i did noe he is no longer him waaaay back. but it's a bit different now compare to then. last time, he disappointed me. and that changes my opinion on him. ol' story doest have to tell twice.

but now, he is a new man. he talks like an insurance agent. even in text messages. awed me! but hey...that's not the person i noe. i dont feel comfortable at all. seriously. i noe i may be a bit paranoid since it's all in text. but i just can form all those words and imagine him saying that all out. it freaks me.

he has grown so much since i last see him!

he is talking/prepping to me about how i shud be planning for a finance thingie to guarantee my future. heck, i din even think that far! not my graduation, not my job, not my future. just getting myself straight now would quite content the procrastinator in me. and here's the man telling me if i save a hundred bucks a month now, i can get thirty nine thousands 20 years later.

:0

actually, i'm both awed and pissed. (how could a person have so much emotion at one time?)

awed by his aspiration and sense of guidance. his professional way. his well-planned future.

pissed by his way of speaking (texting, whatever) the irony is, he IS the one that told me once, about how there are a thousand ways of misinterpreting a person msg. tone factor. one may not mean it but another may see it from the other point of view. SMSes are subjective and judgemental. its just up to you whether you wan to see it from a good way or vice versa. okay, where i was just now? yeah..his way of speaking. i noe he meant good and all. asking me to invest for my future, but wasnt it like .... business? on friends? c'mon. i just want a casual talk. and suddenly you swerved to the topic saying wanna make a financial plan for me.

dude, count me out.

i noe i didnt think about future far and good enough. but i noe one thing. if i finish my studies, getting first degree and all. how bad could i go? arrogant i may sound. but that's reality right? in a society that favours grades and As. yeah..there are some who excels without any paper qualification. my best example would be my cousin. i admire her like mad! but how many more? how many in a ratio of 100? 1000? one mayb?

it's for the good of my future i noe. buuuuuuut, hmmmm.... ok, just imagine an salesperson promoting his stuff, buggerin right? but people dun do that on friends do they? or are friends now the easy targets as they never dare to turn you down??

i tried my best to convey my thoughts here. in my best tone as well. i hope no one gets offended. it is all JUST YOURS TRULY OPINIONS.



****everything sounds so deep all of a sudden. haha!