♥ gen|e in the bottle

♥Thursday, October 09, 2008

My Story ♥

hello everyone. im this useless fella who run away from stress and relaxing her own buttock off at her hometown, sleeping more than usual, watching tvs, onlining, etc, while you all strive badly to finish ur paper. in less than 6hours, all of u all shall be lifted from de curse while i still have to deal with it in 3 more weeks time.

im not de kind of person who get scared of exam. im really not.. maybe i shud say i WAS not. maybe now i am. i know it is exam only. why should i get so paranoid, stressed out for? take de test and measure ur capability. even my dad is incredulous like after so long studying, like since primary to secondary til now in college, i suddenly get this weird illness. but, he also say, "Dont read until ur wire inside there short and haywired. those who study until bonker are the most stupidest. you gone bonker and no more life for u."

"cant study jiu dun study lo. fail then retake lo," he says. he proceed telling me alot of his failure story. like how his english failed 3times and if he failed somemore on his final year then cant graduate. so his professor took pity and let him pass. haha.. it really cheered me up. but i guess im not that bad la. just insuffiecient sleep thus headaches migraines only cant study de.. im nana le! wtf

anyway, all i want to say is thanks for all ur concern. all those smses and calls make me cry n cry and touchie. i have so many lovely friends who cry with me over calls. too bad u cant cant sleep with me ;p CHOIIII!!!

i just wan to say this to myself:
forget all about the past three papers. you're now back in hometown. relax and study for ur microp! :) its ur last paper, if u dun count moral. hahahha. cheers! i love you all!!

p/s: meiyan's friend, i tried ur method last semester final and it didnt work. haha.. it just make me more wakeful and my mind more energetic. but thanks for ur concern anyway. appreciate lots!!

p/p/s: i cant imagine how i didnt update my blog for so long then when i suddenly blogged again, i got replies Oo you all always check is it? i such a disappointed blogger. haha..

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11:05 PM

♥Wednesday, October 08, 2008

My Story ♥

im goin to take mc for my tomoro paper. there's no way i can churn out any answer with less than 3hours of proper sleep within 48hours -.-

god pls save me :( i wan to cry... so badly.. why do i have to deal with this??

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10:51 AM

♥Tuesday, October 07, 2008

My Story ♥

you know what? i cant sleep the whole night last night. right after i finish blogging, i cant sleep. i cant sleep. i cant sleep!!

even after 1 and a half flu pill!!

fucking cant sleep til morning 9am. =.=

had been trying to sleep for a whooping 9hours!!

maybe cos i blogged about it and make it like so final. so..

i can sleep. i can sleep. i can sleep. i can sleep. i can sleep. sleep come to me. i hate insomnia. hate it so much but there is nothing i can do. i hope there's a switch somewhere in my body where i can just turn off and sleep drop dead. hooooooooooooooow i wish!

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6:25 PM

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My Story ♥

its the much hated exam season again. i just had my first paper this afternoon. the night before i was so stressed out i could not understand anything i read. that is really.... how to say. i had been through alot of stressed out period. but normally i treat the stress thing as a source to make myself study harder and get better grades. and as i slowly read and understand more, i noe this sounds weird, but i gained a sense of satisfaction and this will boost my confidence. and i get engrossed to the study material and forgot all about the unproductive stress. but now? i dunno.. i cant seem to get my old me back. i miss my old self.. the one who turns stress into substantial motivation and would try her very best.

i cant seem to concentrate. once a while i'll be happy to find myself engrossed and yay! i am back to being me. awhile later..i found myself having headaches and thinking profusely about the load of stuff i haven read and touch. and make myself all unhappy, stress, and mind swaying, concentrating less and head pain heart pain :(

and worst of all. imsomniac. my last final was hell. i cant seem to forget the period and it seems to be haunting me. maybe its really me myself thinking too much. maybe it is the stress. i dunno why.. i cant sleep during exam period. last time, it was only the day before any paper. now..its like some day yes some day no. and thinking whether i can fall asleep tonight to get my needed sleep in order to read more tomoro is making me even more stressful.

why is this so? am i getting older? i cant take more? like how they say younger people have better learning capabilities.

there's this one night i was so tired. like so so tired. and the weather is super good. i cant sleep the whole fucking night! i listen to the rain pitter patter. then the lightning came, followed by thunders. and when all subside, I AM STILL FUCKING AWAKE.

it is not i didnt try. i tried! like fuck i tried. this trying thing is even more emotional drain then reading my exam. want to sleep but cant sleep. who can take that??

anyway, after that night i get some sleepy flu pills. to pull me through night like does.. and i just had half a pill. and waiting the effect to come take me to slumberland. and i cant effort to wake mr.v up everytime i cant sleep. that would be so unfair and selfish.

i noe its the same drama. i hate it. i just need a place to drain out all this rubbish. nite.

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10:21 AM